My journey

After the stroke

In March 2025 I had an ischemic stroke. It left me with left-sided paralysis. Recovery has been slow, uneven, and sometimes deeply frustrating — but it has also kept moving.

The thing I did not expect

As movement returned, one of the strangest problems was not simply weakness. It was losing the automatic “mental sight” of where my fingers were, especially on the keyboard.

I used to type and game without thinking. WASD was muscle memory. Now I can intend to press one key and find my finger has moved to another. For example, I might expect my middle finger to move toward S, but it goes toward A instead.

Why I made this site

I wanted somewhere honest about that experience, and somewhere useful. This site is for people who are rebuilding movement, confidence, and identity after stroke — especially people who feel caught between “I can move” and “I cannot yet do the thing the way I used to.”

What helped me think about recovery differently

I started thinking of practice as rebuilding a map. Every accurate repetition is a small vote for the route I want my brain and hand to find again.

This project is one part diary, one part toolkit, and one part reminder: progress does not have to look impressive to be real.